Another day goes by...

Well another month has come and gone. The years seem to be speeding up.

I am recognizing patterns with my mental state. Every month about this time I get totally out of whack. Though honestly I have no idea what being "in whack" is like. It is little things like being clumsier, foggy and unable to concentrate. Yesterday on a break, I dropped a cup of coffee in the restaurant where I work. It was embarrassing watching the coffee flow with the slant of the floor in the restaurant.

Everyday situations are harder to cope with and arguments with my husband have much dire consequences in the moment. Dark thoughs of ending the pain are the only result to be seen. I resort to gin and chocolate ice cream though not together. Ewww.
Good thing this phase passes.

My company is less than desirable. I am so tired that sitting and watching the world happen is all that I can muster. Though people are intersting to watch. So I am not bored.